Sunday Night ramble…
A Sunday afternoon shot from the sleaze camera and for you J. I have not uploaded another headless horseman. Although I did see some last night as I went on a haunted hayride. Which was fun – nice to be out, the hayride was nice…the spooks that jumped out of bushes were scary. The people in the wagon (myself and my friends excluded) were scarier. I am terrified frankly of rural white people that vote for McCain.
There I said it.
Someone exclaimed “that’s so gay” and I muttered “gay is not a synonmyn for stupid” not loud enough but I was outnumbered…there were a lot of Bubbas and good old boys on the wagon.
The tattoo is healing – phew. I was sort of obsessed with it and convinced it was not healing properly (yeah I went back to the artist) and he said wait a while longer but it might need a touch up. It’s going to need a touchup – areas “healed out” meaning lost color …a few small areas of my arm scabbed up.
Back at the gym — in the last few weeks I have been so busy that I have not had the time to get there and going to the gym really is essential to my health and mental well being. I have a tad too much energy that has to get expelled. I lurve the sauna, listening to music and sweating. I’ve lost some of my prior strength for example I couldn’t benchpress 100 lbs. (2 x 10 reps) today — I had to settle for 85 lbs. Sigh. Regroup all over again.
I think I may scale back anyway …not on the workouts but on the higher weights, lift more but lighter weights worried I am getting too bulky. I want leaner and meaner.
Speaking of leaner…the scale said 170!!!!!! WTF – I am NOT happy. I am tall 5 foot 10 but I am not happy with the ever growing numbers. Grrrrr.
So I am watching my diet yet again — tonight for only the second time this week I ate something 1. hot 2. cooked. I have been eating not only vegetarian but raw. Means a hell of a lot of green smoothies.
And a green smoothie is…2 cups of water, several handfuls of spinach leaves, an organic banana, an organic kiwi and into the blender it goes. Whirl, whirl, whirl and you have almost a quart of bright green spinach juice. Fucking delicious mmm, mmm and I will bet as you read this, you are, admit it — crazy jealous!
Actually it tastes pretty good – you are really not even aware of the spinach. Now if you do spinach, omega oils, tomatoes, cucumbers, celery…that is cr!@#!! you drink it but it’s not a fun experience. Not at all – and that damn scale should move if you are eating that stuff, move!
So I am a vegetarian that less and less often finds a cheeseburger in her mouth, with more raw foods and exercise.
I want to weighh 155 lbs. this is important to me and I am annoyed with my higher weight. Don’t tell me I am getting older and you gain weight –that annoys me too.
Well I am NOT getting any more mature, not ever – so there!
I see Ferrick next week…TWICE. Very excited.
Have been quiet, reflective — working too much, the dog, the election, worried about business (although it has been great, this economy is scary). No dates, no one I really want to date – sort of leaving me in a funk.
And that is about all I am up to. Really like the latest raku tile pieces and have many more, coming in various stages, to completion. I’d like to make art all day long.
And a date – a date would be great…alas not on the immediate horizon (but then who knows).
I am learning acceptance – to accept where my life is and live in the present moment and not constantly struggle with desires to be in a different place, or time, or with a different person, or a different…
Acceptance and to live in the moment (so exquisitely difficult) ahh stamp my feet bad, bad, bad little Buddhist wannabe.
Still reading…for dog sakes why?!! I am going to try to blog more often, be more interesting and get to returning your comments.
Thank you all, really so very grateful for my internet community of bloggers and readers…it means the world to me. The world – so thanks!
My baby dog — she’s so cute I just have to squeeze her, even after she rolls in disgusting things!